Hello! I go by Gypsy, and welcome to my journey. I’m so glad that you are here. I grew up in a conservative Christian family and went to church every Sunday. I strived to be the quintessential Christian girl who had all the proper hopes and dreams. As I grew up, I was very hurt by the church and by the people who claimed to have loved me the most, but like most Christians, I hated and buried my feelings believing that they were evil and wicked. In 2021 I started dating my first love. We had many thought-provoking conversations about feelings, childhood trauma, and what Abba God’s love really looks like and FEELS like. He challenged what I believed and started to illuminate another way. A way where I wasn’t evil and wicked. A way where my heart and my feelings truly mattered. He posed that maybe “gasp” Abba God really and truly loves my feelings and my heart. He sparked in me a desire to heal my trauma, connect with my heart, and get to know Abba God’s love for me for the first time in my life. I learned how my traumas build walls that block my heart from feeling love. I’ve learned that my inner child is not the enemy but a deeply hurting little girl who needs a hug and for me to listen and say that she matters. I’ve learned that vulnerability is a strength and the only way to truly connect with and love others. My journal has been my safe place, my confidant, and at times the only thing that has kept me going. I’ve written everything in there, all my feelings and raw, painful truths. I kept thinking that maybe writing them down in this format would help others along their way so this is what that is. I’ll be writing down whatever is on my heart or what I’m learning about. It won’t be aesthetic and curated because feelings are a beautiful fractal. I have no interest in telling you how to live your life or what to believe. My only purpose is that maybe through documenting my journey, I can share that to feel is to truly be alive.